三隻大狼

從前，狼群中有三兄弟，牠們分別是狼大哥、狼二哥和狼小弟。

某個冬夜，三狼經過一間住有小豬的磚頭屋。狼小弟說：「那間屋內的小豬，正好拿來當晚餐。我看看～嗯…這些磚頭雖然我們撞不破，但你們看！屋頂有個煙囪。也許我可以從那裡爬下去，然後大家就可以一起在屋內共進乳豬大餐了。」
狼小弟說罷就躍身屋頂，從煙囪上鑽身往下爬。牠沒想到，小豬早在煙囪下煮好了大鍋熱水。過了一刻鐘，小豬就在磚頭屋內暖呼呼地吃著狼羹了。

二狼不得其門而入，只好繼續前行。隔天晚上，牠們經過一間住有小豬的木屋。狼二哥說：「我看我們都餓了，我去把木門破開，抓隻肥滿的小豬來充肌吧！」
二狼二話不說就撞上木門，撞兩次、再撞一次後，整個木門被牠撞得稀巴爛。牠踏進門內，對著小豬狂吼，露出勝利的笑容。「好了，小傢伙，來當我們的晚餐吧！」話沒說完際，小豬按下開關，木門旁邊的木牆中迸射出一根尖銳的木矛，把二哥活活刺穿。狼大哥被嚇得落荒而逃，小豬當晚則在屋旁開了個營火，請朋友一起來個烤肉大會。

第三天晚上，孤狼飢寒交迫，在雪地中戚然前進。最後牠走到一間住有小豬的稻草屋前。牠想都沒想就用盡最後一口氣一吹，整間稻草屋就被吹走了。狼大哥望著面前的小豬，對方正瑟縮在被窩中捲成一團。我勝利了！狼大哥確信自己終於能把肥肉拿到嘴邊，立即衝向小豬－
然後踏空。牠掉進了床邊一個五米深的坑洞，發出悲慟的嚎叫。

反映在狼大哥眼簾中最後的映像，是小豬慢慢地從床上爬下來，和她嘴角的一抹奸笑。

Thoughts

So many questions
So much pain
So many wishes
Will my life be the same?

So many answers
So many ways
So many choices
Why is life this way?

What is not, can come
What is, can change
Why dont I know the answer?
To happiness, yet pain

I read, I admire
I read, I ignore
Why cant I implement
What feels right, yet strange?

Who am I, where should I go?
I dont know, dont dare
Dont choose, dont change

Inner struggles, inner change
Inner conflicts, inner pain

Yet dozens of reasons, challenges and games

Wilhelmina, 6/14/03

天氣不怎麼冷的聖誕

這個聖誕，沒踏足過市區半步。大概是我懂得自己外出去玩後的第一次。

24 和25號晚上，雖然貪玩細胞一直在癢，但最終仍是乖乖呆在家中。
晚上到附近隨便找點吃的時候，看到街上明顯地比平日還要冷清。
而且周圍的聖誕氣氛也不濃厚，這令我有種好像戒嚴中的城市的錯覺。

生活圈子日漸縮窄，只要友人們當中有一兩個在忙，似乎就找不到人陪伴；
加上自己越來越沒guts去接觸新朋友…
這種癢，看來會癢很久。

Surrender

Lyrics: Angela Aki
Music: Angela Aki

The one who gifts you, the one who lifts you
She's the angel in your eyes
Tiny kisses and magic wishes
Makes the world a big surprise
Growing older, past the shoulder
When everything seems bright
Time just races-changing faces in the light

Then you see the world gets smaller
And you're taller than the sky
She's no longer the stronger
And as you battle to survive
You try to bend her; can't defend her
There's no wrong; there is no right
No one surrenders-only contenders in this fight

I know the madness, felt the sadness
Resisted just this way
Stuffed the feelings kept concealing
All the things you want to say
But it's not treason; she's not the reason
It's the season of your life
The winds will soften and let the winter fade away

You have to mend it; you have to end it
Before the chance passes by
Break down the fences your defenses
Open your heart; you have to try
To trust your senses; no more pretenses
And you'll rise above
When you surrender to all the splendor of her love

The one who gifts you, the one who lifts you
She's the angel in your eyes
The one who stayed there so unafraid there
All through innocence's demise
Growing older, as you hold her
Once again it seems all right
Time just races-changing faces in the light

Go on mend it; Go on and end it
Before the chance passes by
Break down the fences and your defenses
Open your heart you have to try
To trust your senses; no more pretenses
I believe you'll rise above
When you surrender to all the splendor of her love
When you surrender to all the splendor of her love

台行

16~17: 高雄
17~19: 台南
19~20: 台中
20~21: 嘉義
21~25: 台北
25: 回港

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拍了很多照片
去了很多地方
吃了很多小吃
腳都跛了

回港後慢慢後補

效率

在家的時候，做什麼都不夠效率。
電腦在廳，有家人在後面走來走去，造成的滋擾也不少。
集中不到精神時就往床上一躺，有時一躺就是好幾小時。

一切都在於我的家中並沒有一處專門為工作而設的地方。
下次搬家/裝修的時候，一定要想清楚哩 T_T

夢迴

聽說只有睡得深沉的人才能記得夢的內容。

今天早上醒時，正時最深沉的時刻。

一瞬間，幻覺和現實重疊起來。


頭就開始痛了。
果然不應該太晚睡的....||||